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14
Jun

the boy and the tree

There once lived a boy who found a tree in which was all his delight. Good thing, because the tree was especially fond of him as well. The tree was hidden in a grove that looked ordinary on the outside, but was hiding this unique treasure on the inside. Bold yet inviting, the tree received regular visitors, some who found it on their own and some who were told about it by the boy.

The boy didn’t mind sharing his secret about the tree, he had found it to be so enjoyable that he firstly couldn’t keep it to himself, and second, the tree seemed to have so much to give that he knew he wouldn’t receive any less with more people around. Each time at the tree was a little different, finding new patterns in the bark, crevices leading to the plummeting roots below. Looking up was always a joy, as the branches seemed to go far up and out of sight, and he would constantly wonder how many there were and, of course, if he would ever be able to climb them.

The boy was a natural climber, schooled by the tree itself, and the boy had spent enough time by the tree to learn some secrets to getting up. The boy wasn’t the tallest or most athletic in his class, but somehow when he came to the tree he was able to swing himself up just fine. Climbing was an added joy because when he first did so he realized that the tree was bearing fruit! Exuberant, he lunged toward what looked like an apple and nearly fell off entirely. He learned to be more and more careful in his joy to reach out for the fruit, and eventually (through practice) became so good at getting the fruit that his friends would ask him to get certain fruit for them to take home. That was his joy of course, because it meant more and more climbing. Until one day.

Until one day - a terrible storm visited the valley where he lived, and the wind shook the tree so violently that several of the branches were broken off entirely. This didn’t phase the tree in the least bit, but some of the branches that fell happened to be the very ones that the boy was so skilled at climbing. One of the lower branches, the one he always used to swing up toward the second branch that no one could reach any other way, was gone. There it lay, on the ground, still looking strong - but, slowly losing its color as it had its security to the tree. The boy knew from science class that the roots were no longer able to feed that branch with its’ life and that it could no longer bear fruit. Therefore, if he was going to get fruit from the tree, he would have to get it from a different branch.

That was the most troubling part of all, getting to those different branches meant finding new ways to climb. The boy was so used to running full speed into that tree, swinging up his favorite branch and landing just high enough to reach the fruit and climb even higher to other yet unexplored areas of sheer joy and fulfillment. The fruit he would usually bring down would indeed bring joy to others, but he wasn’t as concerned about that as he was about merely getting it for himself. What would he do?

He knew he had to set about learning how to climb the tree in a different way, new angles to reach new branches to reach, of course, new fruit. Everyone had to do this, he knew that. No one knew how to climb the tree right away and everyone had to learn new ways to climb it, especially as they grew. Even though the boy knew this, he was still very sad. Though he wanted to think, plan, and scheme new ways to climb the tree and dream about the fruit he would find there, his mind kept wandering back to the sadness he felt and not being able to swing up the tree like he was used to.

This process proved difficult indeed. Though the boy still enjoyed the tree very much, he felt more bruised and battered than ever trying to jump, claw, and swing - but mostly ended up on his back or knees. There was one particular branch he just knew he would be able to reach, but it seemed just beyond his height. He tried and tried, just almost getting success, but never being able to hang on for more than a few seconds or so. As a boy who again was not the tallest in his class, he wished he could simply grow an inch or two so that he could reach that branch and back up the tree to the fruit. Oh how he longed for the fruit again! And who knew? Perhaps the different route up would lead him to greater tasting fruit and different panoramas of the valley below?! He just had to get up that tree!

Alas, day after day the boy tried with little gain. The boy couldn’t contain his frustration even to his best friend, the girl. After telling her over and over again that he wished he could grow just a few inches taller so that he could reach that branch, she finally told him in her nonchalant, frustrating yet insightful way, she said "You know, you can enjoy the tree in other ways besides climbing it. Why don’t you just sit down against it and enjoy its shade?" Sit against the tree and enjoy its shade?! The boy was in no small way peeved at the statement. How could he enjoy the tree at its base when he had climbed and seen higher heights! Who wants to sit at the base when all that wonder is accessible just a few rungs up?

But it wasn’t anymore, and that was the problem. He just wasn’t tall enough yet! And the fruit, oh how tasty it was! Surely it would help him grow - oh how he loved that tree. In his half-angered half-grieved state, the boy ran to the tree as fast as he could, and, almost on purpose, threw himself down back against the tree.

He didn’t mean to slam it that hard, and it kind of stung his back. It was the expression of his frustration with himself and the tree, and the lack of fruit he had taste…PLOP!

The shaking of the tree has loosened the fruit, bouncing off the branches the boy would one day climb, and landed right on the boy’s head.

He sat back against the tree, a tear rolling down his cheek, and bit into the fruit.

05
Jul

Simplicity: The Power to do Good

Lately I’ve felt the Lord trying to simplify my Christian life. Bringing things back the original, most necessary, main and plain things that must be the horse before I can ever get to the cart. We, especially in the West, have made the Christian life so complicated, that I’m searching the Scriptures to find simplicity. That word is taken from 2 Cor. 11:3, where Paul talks about the simplicity of the gospel, which is devotion to Christ. Devotion to Christ seems to be the vehicle of the entirety of the rest of the Christian life. This blog series, entitled “A Terrible Thievery”, is mostly my journey in understanding all that distracts and steals from me the simplicity of devotion to Christ. If you haven’t already, please read the first post below before this one.

Now, some brief thoughts this morning on what else is missing when Christ isn’t the head, or isn’t given first place or preeminence in our focus as the people of God. Since I have no ability to obtain righteousness by the law, then I also have no ability to obtain sanctification merely by the outward practices of God’s Word (Galatians 5). However, Christ in me is more than sufficient to will and to work according to His good pleasure (Phil 2:13) the inward and outward deeds that are pleasing to Him. He in me, is my only hope of Christ-likeness, or “being spiritual”, or “having God’s heart”, or “not being an American Christian”, or “being Godly”.

Jesus said “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.” (Matt 5) We hunger and thirst for righteousness by hungering and thirsting for Christ, who is righteousness. However, He isn’t just a stagnant righteousness, but an active righteousness that empowers, frees, and strengthens according to its’ own kind. Therefore the more I know Christ, the more I am inspired to understand His power to work through me the “Godly life” He desires, and therefore walk in it! The “Godly life” that we all desire and preach, is only obtained through personally knowing Christ. Even Jesus’ said that He spoke and did nothing apart from what He saw the Father speaking and doing (John 5, 8). Even Christ’s outward perfection was empowered by His living, abiding relationship with the Father, and His understanding of who He is!

How crucial is it therefore that we understand who He is! Peter says it this way  -

His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.” 2 Pet. 1:3

What an incredible statement! Knowing Christ is accessing the very power we need for life and godliness. Beloved of God, let’s get to know Him, for that is our eternal life! (John 17:3; John 6:36; John 7:37-39)

01
Jun

Thoughts from Colorado #7 - Up to Transfigure

And after six days, Jesus took James, Peter, and John with him by themselves, and led them up a high mountain. And He was transfigured before them….- Mark 9:2

We ourselves heard this very voice borne of heaven, for we were with him on the holy mountain. - 2 Peter 1:18

It is on the mountain that we learn how to see Jesus. It is on the mountain that we learn how to worship Jesus. It is on the mountain that we learn how to listen to Jesus. Surely we can do these other places, but God calls us who draw near to Him up higher so that we can experience Him in fresh and new ways.

I haven’t been necessarily speaking of the physical mountain, but of the inner season and journey it represents. In the Old Testament, the “high places” were established for worship in various locations. Either false gods and idols were worshipped, or the Lord himself on these “high places”.

However, when the Temple was established, God desired the high places to be done away with, so that all people would come “up to Mount Zion” to worship the King of Glory. Unfortunately, many still set up high places to worship Baal and other false Gods. (2 Kings 14:4) Going up to the high places, and now, the long journey to Jerusalem was to be an act of humility, sacrifice, and dedication to go and worship on God’s holy hill, Mount Zion.

Then, when Jesus came, he spoke to the Samaritan woman in this way: “Believe me dear woman, the time is coming when it will no longer matter whether you worship the Father on this mountain or [at the temple] in Jerusalem….For God is Spirit, and He is seeking worshippers who will worship in Spirit and Truth.” (John 4:24) What an amazing transition!

Look! He turns the worship from an outward requirement to an inward position! Notice that he did NOT say “worship by the spirit and by the truth”. We often try to acquire these things that we might “use them as tools” to worship God. On the contrary, worshipping “IN spirit and IN truth” are actual positions to God, just as the mountain was previously in the natural.

Instead of striving to obtain more “spirit” and more “truth”, the veil on God’s holy mountain has been torn asunder, that we might enter in to the spiritual reality of “spirit and truth” by His blood! By bold confidence and humble faith, we ask the Holy Spirit to guide us “into” spirit and truth! By that inward positional reality, unattainable by even the most “self-righteous” individual, we are ministering to the Lord - becoming the exact worshippers “the Father is looking for”. No flesh can gain access there, it is by the Spirit in faith!

Who will come up to the mountain to see Jesus transfigured, hear His voice, and worship Him in His presence, which is “spirit and truth”? God is Spirit, and Jesus is the Way, Truth, and the Life. Unlike here in Colorado, the journey is an inward sacrifice, for we must believe in order to see. We can not see and then believe, but by believing we have access to be positionally “in spirit and in truth” we are worshipping as the Father desires.

Therefore, let us lay hold of this place we have been granted, this free access to the mountain of God by His grace! Let us minister to God without fear, without striving, but with humble faith, true humility, and passionate joy out of His great love and provision for us to be the very thing He desires.

29
May

Thoughts from Colorado #4 - Look Up

“I lift my eyes up, unto the mountains. Where does my help come from? My help comes from You, Maker of Heaven and Earth.” - Psalm 121:1-2

The mountain first and foremost is the place of encounter. To find the Lord as He is and be utterly shocked by Him. To be brought to trembling before His awesome majesty and shudder before the whisper of His power. To feel the energizing fear of the Lord tantalizing you as your soul cries out for the eternal life you’ve spoke of a million times more than you’ve ever really tasted.

It is an encounter with Life itself. To be before the Lord on the mountain is to have your insides rent and your outsides feel like insides. It both satiates and invites your longing, creating within you a desire to cry out in ways you can’t fathom how. Fire, power, thunder, and gentleness all in the same feeling. Your core treads carefully as it jumps in and out of itself toward what it was created for.

All fades away. All melts away as much as we let it. We draw near, utterly unworthy but daring not to think on that or anything less than what is above, terrible, and beautiful. It is on that place of earth, between earth and sky, on that mountain, where everything comes into unbelievable clarity. It is this God, utterly indescribable and impossibly kind, that brings humility in His wisdom, and leaves us undone yet unashamed in our naivete.

Words like love, power, glory, and salvation take on new meaning and fuller definition, making the previous meanings seem like shadows.

Being closer to heaven physically and spiritually, on the earth and yet above it - we realize that it is this God, Jesus, who has created all things. The mountain is a pivotal place of revelation concerning the relationship between heavenly and earthly things, giving perspective, vision, and focus. All issuing forth from the God-Man Jesus, in whom God has purposed to join heaven and earth together.

Lord have mercy on theology based outside encounter. Lord have mercy on vision from lower than Your Holy mountain. “Get up to the mountain!”, says the Lord!

27
Mar

Mr. Jones and Our Seven Longings

Sitting outside the new coffee place in town, enjoying the Sunday afternoon breeze - an old familiar song came on the speaker. It was Counting Crows famous “Mr. Jones and Me” song, “La la la la la la yeah” the song began. I had been sitting inside, where everyone, including the workers, had been staring agape at the teenage couple outside by the fountain that were embarrassingly making out for all to see. Many people were laughing, hard not to I guess, but it made me think about what I’ve heard taught about the “Seven Longings of the Human Heart“.

These kids were simply trying to fulfill these longings, afar off from actually doing so, and in their giddy foolishness ignored the world around them as they plunged head-long (literally) after their longings. I wanted to go interrupt them, not to tell them to leave, but to kindly remark that their love for each other would never ultimately satisfy. To point them to the love of Jesus, the truest, purest love man could ever know, not only as the foundation and fulfillment of their own hearts’ longings, but for the purer enjoyment of their own human relationship with each other. But, unfortunately or not, I didn’t. I went outside.

And the Counting Crows front-man began to howl out the loud-speaker. As the familiar tune played, I realized - this is the PERFECT song to articulate the Seven Longings of the Human Heart! Seriously, check out these lyrics below:

1. Longing for Beauty. “We all want something beautiful, man I wish I was beautiful.”

2. Longing to be Fascinated. “Come dance this silence down through the morning! Cut Maria! Show me some of them Spanish dances and pass me the bottle, Mr. Jones!”

3. Longing to be Great. “I want to be a lion. Yeah! Everybody wants to pass as cats, we all want to be big big stars - but we don’t know why and we don’t know how…”

4. Longing to have Intimacy. “Yeah, we stare at the beautiful women. She’s looking at you, man, theres’ got to be somebody for me!”

5. Longing to be Enjoyed. When I look at the television I wanna see me, staring right back at me!!”

6. Longing to be Whole-Hearted. “I want to be Bob Dylan….I will paint my picture, blue and red, and black and gray. All of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful…if I knew Picasso, I’d buy myself a gray guitar and play!

7. Longing to make a Lasting Impact. “Mr. Jones and me look into the future…where everybody loves me, I will never be lonely….I’m going to be just about as happy as I can be!”

So here’s to you - crows that count! You have counted for us very clearly the seven longings in each and every human heart. Here’s to finding your longings in that which satisfies ultimately, Jesus the Christ.

07
Nov

Eye:See::Heart:Understand

I’m stuck lately at a few verses that align the word “heart” with the word “understand”. I did a brief study on it, and indeed, there are many verses that relate the two together. Understanding, according to the bible, comes out of the heart. Just as seeing comes from the eyes and hearing comes from the ears, true understanding comes from the heart.

According to Nave, the heart is “the seat of affections”. It is the “wellspring of life” according to Proverbs, from which flow “all the issues of life.” We know well that to speak of your heart speaks more than the blood-pumping organ in your chest, but the place where you feel deeply, make decisions, and emote life. Interesting, that our heart’s purpose, is to emote life in the natural, as a picture of the spiritual.

Easton says the heart is the “home of the personal life.” We would agree with that, and we know that we should guard it, as it is the free gift of God given to us, that which we have of our own, to make our own decisions with. The home of the personal life - the life within us that is personal, unique, our own, coming from our unique and specific relationship with the Giver of Life who made us. That flow of life is like streams of water “welling up into eternal life.”

And eternal life is to know God. But how do we know God? Paul prayed that the Ephesians would have a “spirit of revelation and wisdom that you may know Christ, having the eyes of your heart enlightened, that you may understand…” The Holy Spirit, gives wisdom and revelation (literally - “breakthrough”) into our hearts (NLT - “flood your hearts with light”) so that we could “understand” God and His ways.

Interesting how we must understand the Lord with our hearts firstly, and the mind is not mentioned. The mind surely is important, as we are to love the Lord our God with all of our mind, etc - but what does that say about human nature that God is giving us instruction? Perhaps the best place one can “understand” so that it really sticks, is the heart.

God’s user manual for the creation of man is detailing the fact that man understands things best when they are experienced in his heart, rather than just in his mind. Now, often the two can accompany each other on the journey to know the Lord, and should - but the heart is of firstmost importance. Unfortunately, the mind is the first thing we utilize in trying to understand the Lord and His ways, when the Bible clearly says it should be the heart. Examples:

Psalm 49:3 - “My mouth shall speak wisdom. The meditation of my heart shall be understanding.

Prov. 2:2 - “..incline your ear to wisdom, and your heart to understand.”

Prov. 3:5 - “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding…”

Eph. 4:18 - “They are darkened in their understanding…for they are hardened in heart.”
(again the similarity between light and understanding as in Eph. 1:18)

Deut 29:4 - “But to this day the Lord has not given you … a heart to understand.”

Daniel 10:12 - “And he (the angel) said to me: ‘Fear not, Daniel. For from the first day you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before God, your words have been heard and I have come because of your words.’”

Matt. 13:35 - “For this people’s hearts have grown dull, and with their ears they can barely hear, for they have closed their eyes, lest they should see with their eyes, hear with their ears, and understand with their hearts, and I would turn, and heal them.”

Perhaps a lesson can be learned hear not only for our spiritual understanding, but our natural one as well. How often do we say “I would do better at school, if I were only passionate about what we were learning” or “Give me something that interests me and I’ll do well”. Ultimately we are right, for if the “seat of our affections” is given to something, as well as our mind, then we will not only obtain the knowledge necessary, but the understanding to do well.

Webster defines “understanding” as “that faculty whereby we are enabled to apprehend the objects of knowledge”. I like that word ‘apprehend’. It means to grasp something or to really take hold of it inwardly. More than just memorizing facts, it is to become enlightened by the why as well as the what about something. It’s like knowledge in 3-D.

So, when we come to the Lord, let’s not only pray for “eyes to see and ears to hear”, but “hearts that understand”. Then, we have to let the Lord engage our hearts by talking to us, pouring out His love over us, fascinating us with His word, etc. Then, when our affections are touched, our hearts are held captive by His gaze and word, our mind will be flooded with knowledge, our spirit with genuine spiritual life, and our heart with the light of understanding. Praise God!

07
Oct

Thoughts on Worship - Ambushed.

So we went to the Friday Night 10 pm set last night. A very musically talented team gifted in hearing the Lord and responding in Spirit-led worship lead the 2 hour set. The room was packed. People were ready to meet with the Lord.

An impossibility.

We sang, starting with soft songs of adoration, fixing our eyes on the Lord and reminding ourselves of His faithfulness, beauty, and mercy as we thank Him for them. We can sense His Spirit drawing us, it’s delightful, refreshing, and a bit exciting to say the least. We’re not quite sure where this is going, but hey, we are just worshipping. Some are dancing freely in place, some standing, others quietly sitting, all engaged, focused on the eternal. This continues for about 30 minutes, the Lord wooing us to Himself by His great love.

A necessity.

Suddenly, it seems like something breaks open, much like water going over the cliff and gleefully plummeting down to meet itself at the bottom. There’s this openness, there’s this joy, and the music turns instrumentally celebrational. For about 45 minutes, as the windpipe floats rich melodies over the piano, guitar, and drums, the feeling of victory and thankfulness erupts from within. Like flowing down a river, we sing our own songs of love and worship to the Lord as the instrumentation beautifully flows over us as a fragrant offering unto the Lord.

A delight - but….wait.

Gripped. Struck. What is going on? There’s something bigger going on. In a moment, there is this terrible fear that comes over us. There’s this beauty shed abroad in our hearts, but we begin to tremble. Wait a minute. God knew what He was do……Holy!

An ambush. Encountering God. No…God encountering me.

Fear. The fear of the Lord is here, and an ounce of it in truth is too much to handle. Plunged into despair, feeling strength leave my members. There is a tinge of familiarity here, to that Man, but all of the sudden I feel like I know little of Him. Little of that Man. Little of what is really His. The depths of Him, the God of eternity, with whom light dwells. It feels like you are sucked into an energy-less vacuum, and you instinctively forget to breath.

Beautifully Terrible. Terribly Beautiful…..Holy!

Definitions are different. Holy. Righteous. Power. The previous meanings are washed away like a dead language, replaced by an empty ocean to be filled with water that just started dripping. But wait, I’m still here. I’m left overwhelmed, almost forgetting where I am or what has just blindsided me, but I remember - I remember - the blood. The blood. In the midst of this great gripping, I feel terribly unclean, but beautifully clean. Then…

“I love you.”

Words spoken many a time, but now majestically from the fresh vantage point of my now empty ocean, setting the topography and the scope of whats to come. I feel empty and full, dead and alive, low but high, dry but taken by surprise by a fire-hydrant to the face.

The worship, the wooing, the longing, the carrying - it all leads to….

The revealing. And we can never really prepare for the revealing.

The wooing and the drawing is for the revealing. And the revealing is everything. Without it our oceans are full, not of the real thing, but of water that we filled it with ourselves for appearance sake. The blood of Christ enables us, the Word is the map, and the wisdom of the fear of the Lord sets our heart to tremble and let God reveal Himself. God reveals Himself so that He can pour Himself in us as we daringly gaze on Him.

For what our eye beholds our body will be full of.

Experiencing God is a lethally delightful activity. But it’s the way the world will receive Him, and experience Him. We must receive Him and experience Him. It’s difficult. It’s overwhelming. It messes with our boxes. It strips the forest bare and makes the deer give birth.

“And the knowledge of the glory of the Lord will cover the earth, as the waters cover the sea.”

02
Oct

Thoughts on Worship

Lately, I’ve been thinking alot about worship, the idea, the expression, the form, the power, the privelege, and the journey. I’ve been struck by the fact that the Lord has a place in worship that He desires us to reach, that we can not come to but by His grace in teaching us. I believe there is yet WAY more to be understood, felt, and experienced in individual as well as corporate worship. Before last week’s IGNITE - I felt led to share on the subject, in the limited understanding that I had. You can find those notes here, but in large part we talked about David, the worshiper, shepherding His sheep on the back side of the hill, being faithful with the small things while gazing up at the starry hosts and singing songs like “The Lord is my Shepherd…”. He was learning how to be a worshipper, and worshippers worship. And worshippers impact the heart of God. And worshipers change the world.

I know that these years for many of us are formative, and by God’s kindness we are being formed into what He wants and not just “the usual” aka our own tiny plans for ourselves. We MUST press on to know Him and come into the abundant life that He spoke of, whether or not it looks different than what we are used to or not. I feel like I’m at a point where I’m hungry enough to throw out all my preconceived ideas about worship and say “Jesus, teach me [us] how to worship!” It is in that vein that I start a series of blogs, few of which will be written by me, where I invite any and all people to express their thoughts about worship. What is it to you? What does it mean? How does God feel about it? What does God want to change about the way we worship, and the form it often takes? My prayer is that God busts in with Holy-Spirit creativity and awe-inspiring captivation of our hearts, that we might be a people “worshipping in the Spirit”, even in difficult seasons, that we might come into the Revelation of Jesus Christ. (Rev. 1)